I'm so cross right now!

I went to meet a friend, and landed up having to put up with the railings of a self-righteous misogynist ass who thinks that murdering lesbians in South Africa is alright, if it's in the interests of defending culture. And this idiot thinks that he should be entitled to hold the minds of school children to ransom with his fucked up cultural relativism. No wonder the school system is a mess.

anniversary

Today is the second anniversary of the first time I came out to anyone.
It was at the beautiful beach house, the weather was freezing, and the wind was howling. We lit a fire, one of the three women I was with brought out a huge box of prawns, and we got cooking. I was given the task of peeling and chopping garlic, and I was so nervous, I peeled the whole bulb before anyone realized what I was doing. Finally, I said While we're in confession mode, perhaps it's time I told you all I'm gay. I was shaking so hard I had to put down the knife. One of the women turned around and said did I hear that right? And I nodded, and things erupted. Hugs all around, lots of wine, and great celebrating. The rice turned to mush as we forgot about it in our excitement. One of the other women there was also a lesbian, but it was one of the straight ones I had a crush on. We did get together eventually, but at the time, I was just glad to have told her first.
Today, two years later, there is another woman in my life. At least, I hope there will be when she has taken the time she needs to make the decisions she is making. I hope that this time next year, we'll be celebrating this together.

two roads

I saw the one yesterday, and it broke my heart. She isn't happy, and she's just not doing what she needs to be doing to fix that. She is a nervous wreck, and she needn't be, and her sense of self-worth is thoroughly depleated.
And then I saw the other one today, and this time, all the will and strength in the world isn't making any more sense out of it at all. I'm afraid, and I'm not sure of what. Certainly some of it is impropriety, but some of it is this thing between us that keeps pushing us apart. Once more, I'm afraid that we just might not have enough in common. But when we connect, it is heaven, and just being close to you today was amazing. I'm still surrounded by the warm scent of you, and I wish I could keep it forever.