two roads

I saw the one yesterday, and it broke my heart. She isn't happy, and she's just not doing what she needs to be doing to fix that. She is a nervous wreck, and she needn't be, and her sense of self-worth is thoroughly depleated.
And then I saw the other one today, and this time, all the will and strength in the world isn't making any more sense out of it at all. I'm afraid, and I'm not sure of what. Certainly some of it is impropriety, but some of it is this thing between us that keeps pushing us apart. Once more, I'm afraid that we just might not have enough in common. But when we connect, it is heaven, and just being close to you today was amazing. I'm still surrounded by the warm scent of you, and I wish I could keep it forever.