why can't I hear you?

I've been trying to understand my fear, or at the very least, inability to relax, with you, and it is partly the very positive fact that I feel like you can read me well, and therefore keep me on my feet, and partly the rather terrifying possibility that we are just simply not on the same page. That is terrifying because I respect your opinion, even if I can't understand it, and because I care, and want to maintain our relationship, but fear that we are just incompatible. I don't believe that we are, but I fear it nonetheless.

disjunctures

I guess I keep hoping that the fact that he has expressed the sort of willingness to make an effort with me that I have wanted for so long will translate into good taste. But it doesn't seem to work that way. He is terribly tedious, and that wouldn't be too bad in itself, if he wasn't so negative. I make an effort to be happy, damn it. Life is hard for all of us. I don't work less hard than you. In fact, considering the outcomes of things at this point, I'm inclined to believe that I work harder.

I get that there is no such thing as the perfect match. I understand that every relationship will have positives and negatives, but is it too much to ask that someone I am really strongly attracted to be attracted to me, too?