...or something

I am struggling with the constraints of our relationship. I am struggling with the nature of all of this. I don’t want to work within this situation, but I understand the need for it. And I get the necessity for restraint. How do we do this? Should I back off? But I want more. I believe in this. I love you. I want to fight. I won’t push you, but I don’t want to let go as long as there is any chance of us making this work.It never ends, this longing for something more substantial. I believe I can make you happy. I don’t know what you believe. I suspect you anticipate that I will grow out of it, or something. I hope you will grow into it, or something.